So I'm 21 years old I'm dealing with bpd and depression I've been self harm since I can remember I'm going to therapy but it still is hard to deal with these things going on in my life
I've been trying to deal with my mental disabilities since I was five. I've constantly been told that there's something wrong with me, and it always changes. Currently, I'm diagnosed with ADHD, Aspergers, Bipolar, PTSD, and BPD. My doctor is still trying to tack even more on. Sometimes, I don't think my self-esteem can't get lower. My big sister used to be my biggest help and savior. Now, she's knocking me down and making me feel worse. I'm failing school, and I have very violent tendencies that scare both me and my family. These 'monsters' have been on my tail for years.
Lately I've been super stressed about school. I have anxiety and depression, which affects me a lot. My anxiety makes me really nervous and panicky about getting homework in/meeting deadlines, but my depression makes it so I'm not motivated enough to get anything done. I just can never seem to balance out my mental health, school work, and social life. Lately it's just been wearing me out. I just can't seem to relax. Once I can relax something seems to pop up to worry me again.
My car has been scaring me to death lately, something else seems to go out on it every other week. I just spent nearly $200 to fix the last thing that went wrong with it but once again it seems to be messing up. I really want a new car but i can't afford that on top of my other bills,but i also can't. Afford to keep fixing this one, it has stressed me to tears several times lately.
I am currently hunting down depression. It's like a leviathan, its almost impossible to kill. It always comes back. Black goo everywhere. I need as many hunters as i can to take on this shitstorm.
I've had depression for over 6 months now and some days I feel fine, like nothing's wrong. But other days can get dark, some much worse than others. I have harmed myself, more than I care to admit and some days it's hard to act happy and smile when inside you feel like everyone hates you or you hate yourself. It's hard and I'm trying but it's still there, lurking.
I always lose my friends and I've just been really sad recently. And I've just always had friendship issues. And I go to a private school and the people there are really judgemental. They say something rude in a nice tone then acted like what they said wasn't mean(even my so called "friends" do it). I don't really get along with my family and I just feel really alone
I've been sick for a few years now I've been to countless doctors but it still hasn't been diagnosed, aswell as this I have depression, migraines, CFS and recently had surgery. I'm struggling and everything just seems to be getting worse, it's affecting schooling and relationships and I just don't know what to do anymore.
Sort of a support and victory... I've managed my depression pretty well and learning to live with it and my anxiety, until recently (after about a year without) I've been feeling the itching need to cut. There's days when I trace my old scars, and days when I hold a razor in my hand and ask myself why it would so bad, and I'm having trouble coming up with an answer... I'm so stressed out saving for school and the convention I want to go to in October to meet guy actors who helped save my life. I just want things to stop being so difficult... and I want to stop seeing something sharp and pressing my thumb against it and barely winning the fight, only for it to happen 10 later.
I've been on a continuing hunt for about 12 years now. I've suffered from depression, some times worse than others. This last year though it got a lot worse. To the point that I became suicidal, wanted(still do) to self-harm, and have super bad anxiety. Found out that I have PTSD and this is all stemming from when I was raped 12 years ago while my husband was at basic training. I have zero self-worth, confidence, etc. I feel like a total waste of space. I don't want to do anything productive but at the same time my anxiety and OCD tendencies scream at me to do chores because it is driving me insane to see the mess. I feel like my husband and 4 boys would be better off if they just had someone else who could do it all. And nobody seems to understand at all. They just tell me how "blessed I am because of all that I have" and "that I should be thankful because of all I have" and "we love you and you are wonderful". Thank you, I know, and to some degree part of me knows that I am loved and needed. But the bigger part of me doesn't feel that at all. I finally got some help and am on meds and seeing a counselor which is helping a lot. But it is still a very rough road and very "moment to moment". But, I am working on myself and will get better. Supernatural has been such a blessing and AKF is so very near and dear to my heart. The cast and crew are truly amazing and such an inspiration.
