So my story is kind of long and has been ongoing, my husband and I married kind of quickly and had a beautiful daughter together who is going to 3 in September. I have been struggling with depression, illnesses that doctors can't figure out, trying to help my husband cope with everything he is going through (ptsd, tbi, bi polar) trying to get him VA disability, constant physical pain. It has been pretty rough from the start, but I would say this past year has been the worst. I really have nowhere to turn to talk to anyone, and I have no friends to hang out with for some me time. I know I love my husband and my daughter and try to be strong for them, but its really hard when there is no one there to be strong for you. My husband does try, but with his issues, it's really hard to talk to him without setting him off. There are times I cant get out of bed or fall asleep early because of it all. The only thing that I started doing which brought me a little joy for a little bit was help out a pig rescue and adopted one of the baby pigs born Christmas Eve and we have to wait to bring him home. That has now even turned into something I'm not excited about doing because the lady running it never gives me a straight answer and it feels like more of a headache because she has her own problems she asks what to do about but doesnt fix them and its frustrating. I just hope i can start to find happiness again and maybe start making friends and have people I can talk to about everything.
