I just had foot surgery finally I been dealing with my issue since last August just so glad to have this finally taken care of. I did have some problems coming out of it I couldn't breath when I woke up but other than that I'm glad to have it done
So for the last year it has been really hard for me. I moved away, but then I moved back to my home town. I noticed that everyone had changed, even some of my best friends had changed. One of them unfriended me this year for my sister and I only had my friend Kassy. Then my ex boyfriend called me a whore and told me I was a waste of life. I have tried to kill myself for a long time. Lately though it has been getting better because of my new boyfriend because we both had these issues, but lately my other old friend, the one that left me has been making me hang out with her and then she would ditch me. I cant stand all the tears I have shed because of her. she has been making me so depressed like my family has. I need help.
So I'm 21 years old I'm dealing with bpd and depression I've been self harm since I can remember I'm going to therapy but it still is hard to deal with these things going on in my life
I've been trying to deal with my mental disabilities since I was five. I've constantly been told that there's something wrong with me, and it always changes. Currently, I'm diagnosed with ADHD, Aspergers, Bipolar, PTSD, and BPD. My doctor is still trying to tack even more on. Sometimes, I don't think my self-esteem can't get lower. My big sister used to be my biggest help and savior. Now, she's knocking me down and making me feel worse. I'm failing school, and I have very violent tendencies that scare both me and my family. These 'monsters' have been on my tail for years.
Lately I've been super stressed about school. I have anxiety and depression, which affects me a lot. My anxiety makes me really nervous and panicky about getting homework in/meeting deadlines, but my depression makes it so I'm not motivated enough to get anything done. I just can never seem to balance out my mental health, school work, and social life. Lately it's just been wearing me out. I just can't seem to relax. Once I can relax something seems to pop up to worry me again.
My car has been scaring me to death lately, something else seems to go out on it every other week. I just spent nearly $200 to fix the last thing that went wrong with it but once again it seems to be messing up. I really want a new car but i can't afford that on top of my other bills,but i also can't. Afford to keep fixing this one, it has stressed me to tears several times lately.
I am currently hunting down depression. It's like a leviathan, its almost impossible to kill. It always comes back. Black goo everywhere. I need as many hunters as i can to take on this shitstorm.
I've had depression for over 6 months now and some days I feel fine, like nothing's wrong. But other days can get dark, some much worse than others. I have harmed myself, more than I care to admit and some days it's hard to act happy and smile when inside you feel like everyone hates you or you hate yourself. It's hard and I'm trying but it's still there, lurking.
I always lose my friends and I've just been really sad recently. And I've just always had friendship issues. And I go to a private school and the people there are really judgemental. They say something rude in a nice tone then acted like what they said wasn't mean(even my so called "friends" do it). I don't really get along with my family and I just feel really alone
I've been sick for a few years now I've been to countless doctors but it still hasn't been diagnosed, aswell as this I have depression, migraines, CFS and recently had surgery. I'm struggling and everything just seems to be getting worse, it's affecting schooling and relationships and I just don't know what to do anymore.
