Sort of a support and victory... I've managed my depression pretty well and learning to live with it and my anxiety, until recently (after about a year without) I've been feeling the itching need to cut. There's days when I trace my old scars, and days when I hold a razor in my hand and ask myself why it would so bad, and I'm having trouble coming up with an answer... I'm so stressed out saving for school and the convention I want to go to in October to meet guy actors who helped save my life. I just want things to stop being so difficult... and I want to stop seeing something sharp and pressing my thumb against it and barely winning the fight, only for it to happen 10 later.
I've been on a continuing hunt for about 12 years now. I've suffered from depression, some times worse than others. This last year though it got a lot worse. To the point that I became suicidal, wanted(still do) to self-harm, and have super bad anxiety. Found out that I have PTSD and this is all stemming from when I was raped 12 years ago while my husband was at basic training. I have zero self-worth, confidence, etc. I feel like a total waste of space. I don't want to do anything productive but at the same time my anxiety and OCD tendencies scream at me to do chores because it is driving me insane to see the mess. I feel like my husband and 4 boys would be better off if they just had someone else who could do it all. And nobody seems to understand at all. They just tell me how "blessed I am because of all that I have" and "that I should be thankful because of all I have" and "we love you and you are wonderful". Thank you, I know, and to some degree part of me knows that I am loved and needed. But the bigger part of me doesn't feel that at all. I finally got some help and am on meds and seeing a counselor which is helping a lot. But it is still a very rough road and very "moment to moment". But, I am working on myself and will get better. Supernatural has been such a blessing and AKF is so very near and dear to my heart. The cast and crew are truly amazing and such an inspiration.
Hi my name is Lauren and I'm a hunter. Right now I'm on a hunt for anxiety and depression.I have been are dealing with both for as long and I can remember. I feel like I'm all alone and I have no one to fight this fight with. Any help would be appriciated. Always keep fighting and carry on my wayward son 🙂
2015 was a bad year. Started with stepdaughter being sent to a state run mental institution after years of psych wards and 911 calls. Due to funding being cut, she was sent home early. We may have to give up custody so she can get the help she needs. It has been hell ever since she got home. In addition, my grandmother was diagnosed with cancer and passed within 3 weeks. She passed the same night I got in a bad car wreck. I missed her funeral due to surgery being scheduled. The accident was not my fault, but the person who caused it is unharmed and getting away with it. Here's to month 3 of bedrest. In addition, my son, born in 2015 had to be transferred to another city with a high level nicu. I have ptsd from the birth, from the accident. I also suffer extreme depression and anxiety and am not doing well with handling my limitations as a mom right now. My boys, 8m and 4yo, don't deserve a mom like me. Hence my hunt. I'm looking to meet and kill every single demon that has been haunting me since last year. I know, with help, some day, it will get better. AKF
I'm going through a divorce, I suffer from bipolar depression, emotional intensity disorder, borderline personality disorder, self harming tendencies. I self harmed 3 days ago, I'm afraid of how far it may have gone if my boss wouldn't have came in. I'm just a mess. I struggle with my weight on top of everything else. Just would like some support from my hunting family, because my blood family doesn't understand me.
For the past 6 years I have been fighting depression. I have anxiety along with panic attacks and such. Lately I have been fighting not to cut myself. I have so many scars I can not even tell when they were from. I need help.
So I recently moved to Florida..in the beginning it was so hard. I could not find a job..I had no one. I found my wonderful boyfriend..got a really good job at a nursing home, and now I am having a baby. Never thought it was going to turn out like this.
My friend told me she has problem with food. Sometimes she doesn't eat all days or throws up. She doesn't want to eat 'cause she thinks she's fat (actually she's really skinny). She doesn't want to tell it anyone and I'm trying to convince her 'cause I think she should seek professional help. Sometimes I cook her food and she eats it without protest, but I can't be with her all the time. I told it her mum but she thinks it's just temporarily. I hope she will fight with it and I'll convince her to go to see a psychologist.
After New years I have been feeling really down like my depression crawled back up from the hole it was in. Everything seemed fine, but I recently have lost my friends and it sucks, because I thought they cared. But they never really did, they talk about me and always bring me down. This past month has been rough and I feel like i'm opening up old wounds... I just need someone to talk to but no one is here.
Well my dad left when I was ten im currently sixteen and battling depression not so well. In the past two years ive been to the mental hospita twice, been molested and had to go to court for it four times, been assaulted but not to the point where it was illegal (which is bullshit) and have seen my mothers health drop severwly when someone started taking her medicine. I have to take care of three kids by myself and honestly, I dont know how im living at this point. I want to thank you, if you read this far. I just need to get the story out 🙂
